Day 21 of “A 30 Day Journey into Stillness”

For those of you who have participated in the Silence Practice groups, we usually do a God-a-logue each series. We actively engage in dialoguing with our Higher Consciousness and we write it down on paper. In March 2011, I was taking a “Sacred Writing” course when teacher Ray McGinnis introduced the God-a-logue exercise. Along with everyone else in the class, I thought this was a “little silly,” but was game to try nonetheless. Appropriately, the conversation is usually begun by the smaller/identified/separated self. With my Master’s’ in Theology graduation ceremony a couple of months away — after a long 4 years of study — you can imagine my shock when the first thing I came up with was “I want nothing to do with you”! The ferocious nature of my complete God-rejection still sends shock waves through my being. FYI — the end of the God-a-logue resolved nothing. At one point “God” said, “You must be in a lot of pain.” I said, “Yes, I am.” God said “Well … (basically, implying “let go”). My hardened response was, “No, that will be the death of me.” End of conversation. End of God-a-logue. When resistance rules, there is no where to go.